D*VE.

this is just a minor interruption from what i was going to post but this ad is really getting my "goat" (and what does THAT even mean?). and more deeply frustrating is that women are buying into it! it has to do with those annoying D*ve ads - you know, the soap people. don't get me wrong i love D*ve's original bar soap. BUT only because it reminds me of my cool grandmother, Delma who loyally kept a bar of D*ve in her bathroom soap dish (a lovely ceramic mermaid that she cast and painted herself- the soap dish that is). i acutely remember the smell of the soap from every time we washed up after playing with cold grey clay in her basement studio. i also remember her washing my poison ivy infested arms with this soap lathered on a soft cotton washcloth. i'm still not sure this was such a great remedy that was followed with dabbing pink chalky calamine lotion soaked cotton balls over the oozing freshly washed blisters. but she was gentle about it.

anyway back to these ads... what the f*ck?! i don't need some mediocre soap company telling me how cool and beautiful old age is. hell, i have absolutely no desire to be any age other that what i am- 43!!! and i'm looking forward to however many years are ahead of me. and with all of my age spots, moles, wrinkles, a head of grey hair, and "old age" ailments i'm proud of it ALL. and the funny thing is if women FEEL "old" just because they have these qualities it's ONLY because commercials and other forms of product advertisements and media have brainwashed them into THINKING they are old, washed-up, aesthetically worthless, unattractive flesh that needs to make every effort to look 20-30 years old again- just like D*ve has done in the past with all of their teeny bopper looking models. if any one is impressed with these commercials it is clearly an example that folks just don't have a handle on how brainwashed and manipulated they've become. do we need to see ANY women including mature, naked women on television and in magazines in order to ACCEPT, RESPECT and ADMIRE them? it's clearly a transparent system and the trickery, i hope like hell, becomes apparent very soon. it's so insulting. i can't wait for a red carpet celebrity or product endorsement to give me permission to feel beautiful and worthy while wearing little or no make-up, walking around with naturally grey locks, comfortable shoes and flaunting my single breastedness. until then i'll go wait in a goddamn cave and rot for a few thousand goddamn more years feeling like a socially unacceptable outcast loser. HA!

to HELL with hair dye, face potions and needing to get naked to be accepted as a productive, thriving, equal participant in this goddamn shallow society.